Trusting God?

The last couple of years have been hard for me and at times I have found my faith being challenged,  also recently I have found myself behaving in ways that, as a Christian I have been quite ashamed about. However, over the last few months I have been trying with the help of You Version to read and gain a deeper understanding of the Bible. Also as I have been using the bus to get to and from work I have spent a lot of time listening to UCB. Through these I have begun to feel God speaking to me. I have felt more relaxed and less worried about things. Problems have not gone away but I have been able to hand them to God and begin to except that these are all part of his plan for my life. One of the things I been thinking about for some time is the Church I attend. I have been at St Nicholas ever since we came to Midsomer Norton, but lately I have found it increasingly difficult to motivate myself to go. Our local schools hosts Welton Baptist Church on Sunday morning and for some time I have been thinking of attending but I have to say I have been fearful of going to another Church. Anyway with Easter today I felt it was the right time to go and have a look. I don't know what I was expecting but I felt like I really fitted in. I am not saying I don't fit in at my present Church but today while sitting and listening and worshipping I felt excited and really felt Gods presence. So, I will have to see how things go, I don't want to fall into 'the grass is always greener' trap. I will have to see how things progress.

At a crossroads?

For those that know me, or have read this blog will know the last couple of years have had their ups and downs. The last year has been especially hard as I found myself, at times in a deep depression. Looking back this may have been my reluctance to appreciate just how fragile life is and how quickly things can change. Over the last year I have often had an overwhelming desire to just run away, I have no idea where to or why or what I would do. So, I was very surprised to wake up one morning with a complete sense of peace and a feeling that I was at a crossroads. However, I have no idea where the roads lead and what reason I would have to take them. My Christian belief tells me to listen to God. I read the bible every day and this also seems to be giving me the feeling I am at a life changing point in my life. Over the last couple of days things have happened that would suggest the plan (God's) is to stay here but previous experience has shown me life can take some pretty spectacular turns. Don't worry despite my feelings I don't plan to run off just yet. After all what would happen to the cat, the dog and my wife Fiona. I just thought I would share these thoughts with you as there may be some of you in the same situation and it may help me to write these thoughts down. So lets see where this week takes me?